PREFACE

类别:文学名著 作者:赫尔曼·黑塞 本章:PREFACE

    tAINS t US by a man en used eppenroductory remarks may be open to question. I, o teppeno record my recollections of  I knole enoug life and origins I kno all. Yet t by y e of all, a deep and sympatic one.

    Some years ago teppen to inquire for a furnisook ttic room on top floor and t it, returned a day or ter runks and a big case of books and stayed nine or ten montly, and but for t t our bedrooms  door to eacers on tairs and in tically unacquainted. For  a sociable man. Indeed, o a degree I , as eppes, a strange,  of ion and destiny and ed tiny, I certainly did not knoil I read t be, before t, from our occasional talks and encounters, I became gradually acquainted  trait in antial agreement e one t our personal acquaintance had given me.

    By c t ered our  time and became my aunts lodger.  noon. table  been cleared and I still o tten ting impressions  t encounter.  rung t asked  of t ed. teppenher made any answer or announced his name.

    quot;O smells good ;  t  smiled too. For my part, I found tter of introducing  favorably impressed.

    quot;; said ;Ive come about to let.quot;

    I did not get a good look at il o top floor. t very big, able er overcoat and reak of grey.  at all like at first. t it t did not go riking profile nor one of er, I found out t  ired  t time equally unpleasant to me—emplated tairs, tall old cupboards on taircase. All to please and at time to amuse oget of an alien inent per all very ctle odd. I cannot deny t e, even friendly.  once and  objection to terms for lodging and breakfast and so fort about to tile atmospook too, listened attentively and amiably to all old about ting, ter, to everyt once to pay a sum in advance—and yet  time to be outside it all, to find it comic to be doing as  to take it seriously. It  o be renting a room and talking to people in German. Suc ainly not   been revised and corrected by many small instances. Above all, , in spite of t   alert, tful, strongly marked and ellectual. And to reconcile me furte and friendly manner, o cost e  pretension; on trary, t touc. tion of it I found later, but it disposed me at once in his favor.

    Before o ts, my lunco go back to business. I took my leave and left o my aunt.  back at nigold me t aken t   be notified to tate of ies and tanding about in official ing rooms more tolerate. I remember very  giving in to ipulation. to me to agree only too erious and alien air truck me as suspicious. I explained to my aunt t s not on any account to put ion for a complete stranger; it migurn out to  consequences for  it t t my aunt ed , and, indeed,  ogetivated and crange gentleman. For sook a lodger  contrive to stand in some  like or, ration; and many a one   on; I  to find  every time ook .

    As I  at all pleased about ting to notify ted at least to kno  about  sort of family  entions ayed a s  at noon. old   of spending some montoo avail o see its antiquities. I may say it did not please my aunt t aking t a time, but e e of ing , t and my objections came too late.

    quot; it smelt so good ; I asked.

    quot;I kno;t and respectability. It  t pleased  used to t of late and missed it.quot;

    Just so, t I to myself.

    quot;But,quot; I said aloud, quot;if be isnt used to an orderly and respectable life, o   every;

    quot;e s; s it at t.

    And in t my fears proved groundless. tainly did not live a very orderly or rational life, rouble to us. Yet my aunt and I bot about  by a long en dream of  nigence of suc to like urbing and disquieting effect on me.

    ter trangers luggage— in by a porter. runk, runk t sraveled far—at least it ered els and travel agencies of various countries, some overseas.

    time began during ed range man. At first I did noto encourage it. Alterested me from t I saeps for t to run across o get into conversation  I did, all t, keep ion a little, and also  into  and my curiosity drove me to do a little spy work.

    I  of teppen glance t, an uncommon, and unusually gifted man. ellectual, and te and mobile play of ures reflected a soul of extremely emotional and unusually delicate sensibility. o  alionalities and said personal and individual t came out of .  more tters of tellect  calm objectivity, t certainty of t and knoual men o grind, alk oto appear al.

    I remember an instance of t days ing glance  I mean. It orium. I eppeno attend it, t first tle desire to do so. e  toget next to eacure urer ascended tform and began ed a sort of prop, ed by ed air. And ion, to say a fetering to ttendance in suceppenicized bottable and frig  did not simply criticize turer, anniing ts delicate but crus  of it. It  terly and  conveyed a quiet despair, born partly of conviction, partly of a mode of t  only unmasked ted lecturer and dismissed s irony tter at ant attitude of t presumptuous title under eppenivity, trife, ty, ted intellectuality. And alas! t still deeper,  far belos, defects and ime, our intellect, our culture alone. It  rigo t of all y, it bespoke eloquently in a single second t said: quot;See  once all renoelligence, all ttainments of t, all progress to and trick!

    itrary to my actual plan and intention, already conveyed  to me; ance h him.

    No I  ime to say a little more about ;strangenessquot; and to tell in detail rangeness, traordinary and frig ter so, for I y as far as possible in t  to put doo tell a story or to e an essay on psyc simply as an eyeness to contribute someto ture of t teppen behind him.

    At t sigo my aunts  once astonis  natural reaction ed (and my aunt, ual person, suspected very muced t t in some  or cer, and I sinct of time replaced by a sympaty for one ime I oo, t tion  due to any defects of nature, but rato a profusion of gifts and potained to   in tzsced ive genius a boundless and frigy for pain. I sa time t t of  empt but self-contempt; for  annie institutions and persons in alk

    and foremost t ,  and foremost wed and despised.

    And  refrain from a psycion. Alttle of teppen  up by devoted but severe and very pious parents and teac doctrine t makes tone of education and upbringing. But in ttempt to destroy ty and to break t succeed. oo strong and oo proud and spirited. Instead of destroying y teaco e   , innocent and noble as ed during ; and in so far as  loose upon icism, every anger and e e of all, a real Cian and a real martyr. As for ot endeavor to love to be just to to do tred of  love of ones neig possible  love of oneself, and t self-e is really tion and despair.

    It is noime, o put my os aside and to get to facts.  I first discovered about ly tly from my aunts remarks, concerned

    s and  ical calling. e in bed. Often  up muc across from o ting room in ting room, a large and comfortable attic room er a fe at all tenants. It filled up more and more as time  on. Pictures imes illustrations cut out from magazines and often cograptle German country toly ly painted er colors, y young o be replaced first by Mic;Nig; trait of Mama Gandable, on tty old bureau, on t on tes slipped into tinually cantly increased, for besides bringing . t of t o t testify as umps and as t of a scure. ty s of all times and peoples. For a long en spent le Sop to Saxony—a ter part of teentury. A complete edition of Goetenberg ion. A feoievski bristled able among ten a vase of flooo, a paint box, generally full of dust, reposed among flakes of cigar aso leave not) sundry bottles of ratle usually containing Italian red le sen, too, a bottle of Burgundy as  bottle of Cied in a very brief space—after o collect t  furtion of its contents. I  pretend to justify t all tellectual curiosity, but t first rust. I am not only a middle-class man, living a regular life, fond of uality; I am also an abstainer and nonsmoker, and ttles in  of istic disorder.

    as irregular and irresponsible about imes as   go out at all and  imes my aunt found not a banana peel to s ook aurants, sometimes in t and most fasimes in little out-lying taverns.  seem good. Besides  t often made tairs fatiguing to o be plagued roubles, and o me t it  it do and last to er on, I accompanied imes to s I often saher I nor anyone else ever saw him really drunk.

    I ten our first encounter. e kneonis found ed on t and second floors. ting on top step and o one side to let me pass. I asked  and offered to take o top.

    me and I could see t I rance. Slo en filled my  y. ted me to sit beside  said it  my custom to sit on tairs at other peoples doors.

    quot;A; ;Youre quite rig  a moment, for I really must tell you   .quot;

    ed as o trance of t floor flat,  flooring betairs, t door tood a tall cupboard of maer on it, and in front of ts, an azalea and an araucaria, in large pots ands. ts looked very pretty and  spotlessly neat and clean, as I en noticed h pleasure.

    quot;Look at ttle vestibule,quot;  on, quot;s ime I cant go by  pausing a moment. At your aunts too, treme cleanliness, but ttle place of ts so sed and polis it positively glitters. I alake a deep breat as I go by. Dont you smell it too, a fragrance given off by t ine togets—tness and meticulousness, of duty and devotion stle t kno be a paradise of cleanliness and spotless mediocrity, of ordered oucion to lifes little s and tasks.

    quot;Do not, please, t,quot;  on  I speak  for t t is true t I live myself in anot endure to live a single day in a  teppenill Im too s and took care to  and tidy as ever s. All t is brougo me by turpentine and by t do little garden of order and rejoice t sucill are.quot;

    ed to get up, but found it difficult; and  repulse me  I submitted just as my aunt o a certain crange man could sometimes exercise. e  sloairs toget ;Youve come from business? ell, of course, I knotle of all t. I live a bit to one side, on t you too, I believe, interest yourself in books and sucters. Your aunt told me one day t you  you? It would delig;

    ook me into  strongly of tobacco, and took out a book from one of turned the passage.

    quot;too, very good,quot; ;listen to tate. Fine! Eigzsc t is not tence I meant. ait a moment, . t men  so. Is not t ty? Naturally, t s for ter. And naturally t t for t. Yes, and s more,  , but ered ter all t;

    erested; and I stayed on a s  en talked airs or in treet. On suc first t  it  so.  for me, just as ion, er, edness, t a glimpse nouality, for example, t kept me to my office  fall by a servant or tramor—acted on erally as a stimulus  in t arousing  first all to me a ridiculous exaggeration, tation of a gentleman of leisure, a playful sentimentality. But I came to see more and more t from ty spaces of ually really admired and loved our little bourgeois  ever remain far and unattainable, o took off  to our cime  ; and le occasion to talk to o draention, it migo some mending of o on , ened to  attention and consequence, as t reme and desperate effort t o our little peaceful  here, if only for an hour.

    During t very first conversation, about teppenoo estranged and disturbed me a little.  an expression! om did not only reconcile me to it, but soon I never t of oday  on a better description of eppes t  its rayed into toriking image could not be found for lessness, his homesickness, his homelessness.

    I o observe   a Symp,  some  teppen absorbed in s, paying attention neito to  tacranger,  eyes and a cold but troubled expression on er ttle symper a feranger began to smile and abandon o tely absorbed in  ten minutes so  and rapt in pleasant dreams t I paid more attention to o t to go; but after all   and  piece too. It ions by Reger, a composition t many found ratiresome. teppenoo,  made up o listen,  o s and sank once more into s, not  sadly and finally irritated.  and grey. t in it ed.

    I sa in treet and er, but stopped in front of a small old-faser looking irresolutely at time,  in. I obeyed a momentary impulse and follo a table in ted by ess and ress as a . Greeting oo, I took my seat beside  ter, ed for a pint of red  I o t, but  folloopic. tle and asked , the old helpless expression came over his face.

    quot;Youre quite rig; ;I ised abstinence myself for years, and ime of fasting, too, but noellation.quot;

    And took up  seemed to me t rology, ly resumed too polite tone ;You are rigunately, I cannot believe in t science eit;

    I took my leave and . It e before  ep ead of going straigo bed, ayed up an ting room, as I from my neighboring room could hear plainly enough.

    t forgotten. My aunt  and I ood a young and very pretty , talking and laugogetonis t ty and elegant; and all my conjectures about  once more. But before an airs read. For ly to and fro in ting room, exactly like a s cage. t, nearly until da in  all about to add. On one ot reets of too see  an even cimes. It explained to me, also tion my aunt  day, too, c  time before, tle of Italian   in airs. It grieved me.  a comfortless, w a forlorn and sless life he led!

    And noeppenence. But all t believe t ook er paying all   a oters t came for er .  not . It ten during time  it o say t I mig I liked .

    It  in my poo verify truted in . I  t t part fictitious, not, rary invention. tual events ed to express by giving tangible experiences. tly fantastic occurrences in ion come presumably from ter period of ay  t even t t time our guest did in fact alter very muc a great deal, for imes; and ouc t time I imes, indeed, ively  mean t a neely. All day long  t time tremely violent, I may even say brutal, quarrel occurred s pardon for days after.

    No, I am sure  taken ill alive, and somerange ares some floors and carefully tended araucarias, sits for days in libraries and nigaverns, or lying on a ens to t   killed ill tells  o drink tful suffering in  to t it is of t die. I ten.  made life lig t of fostering strengtrary! But I am not  a solid one, filled ies. And so ionately, my aunt and I. So say of  t lies buried in .

    And no o tly diseased, partly beautiful, and tful fantasies, I must confess t if to my  kno certainly . But oo my acquaintance o some extent, to understand to appreciate tate to s ted case of a diseased temperament. But I see somet of times, for  tricity of a single individual, but times t generation to  by no means attacks t, ratrongest in spirit and ric in gifts.

    ttle of real life may lie at t an attempt to disguise or to palliate times. ttempt to present tself in its actual manifestation. terally, a journey times fearful, sometimes courageous journey taken ermination to go to to give battle to co suffer torture to the full.

    A remark of o terpretation. o me once ;tent. A man of test t-day life as someture, every custom and tradition s os os orengts beauties and ugliness; accepts certain sufferings as matters of course, puts up patiently ain evils. o real suffering, to ures and religions overlap. A man of to live in medieval times e miserably just as a savage does in t of our civilisation. Noimes  it loses all poo understand itself and andard, no security, no simple acquiescence. Naturally, every one does not feel trongly. A nature suczsco suffer our present ills more tion in advance.  o go tood, today.quot;

    I often o to t bety and simple acquiescence. o te it is to live tiny ened to tcorture, a personal hell.

    t seems to me, lies to publis, I neit every reader do as his conscience bids him.

    hARRY

    hALLERS


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